So this week’s Raimi Says… isn’t so much a frustration or gripe, but more of a self-realization and kind of a “Where do I go from here?” post. I grew up in a smallish city, and I lived there for the entire first 18 years of my life. It had all of your typical “small city” drama and everyone knew everyone’s business. I had never moved (I lived in the same house from 2 until 18)
So that’s my issue. I like to move too much. … I want to go to work at the same place, day in and day out. That’s the dream right? But then I just want to travel about also… Ridiculous, I know. I know I don’t need all of this tomorrow, but I want to work toward it and start building it. I don’t want to wait until I’m 30. And I know I’m not the only person with the wanderlust heart. I can be somewhere for 4 months and I’m ready to move, And the cycle continues…
It’s almost as if I have a problem with commitment to these certain places. It doesn’t scare me in the slightest to pack up and leave. But I’m also eager to really plant roots somewhere. I’m scared to move somewhere, hate it, and feel defeated. Is London good for me? Will it bring the joy I want? Am I destined to live in the North forever? Is that the right fit?
I have this insatiable need to just go. To experience cities, towns, people… things. I want something different, but I’m terrified at the same time. I realize this is a totally normal feeling, but how do you find the equilibrium? People make cross country moves every single day… I. But anyone can move… Am I going to be able to pick a place and make it work? Am I going to enjoy our day to day lives and my surroundings? I also want to travel the world, but I want my business to work, can I do both?
My feelings on this are nothing new. They’re not unique and they’re probably exaggerated, but I hope you get what I’m saying. I’m ready to move on, leave this chapter in the North behind, and seek adventure somewhere else. But I want to really invest everything I have into my business, and soon. How on earth do you manage to pick a new home and city based on just visiting?!
Any and all suggestions are welcome!
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